Untitled - I Don't Know

I don't know what to say...
What to do..just dont know.
I know what guides me,
Just can't control when
Each of the feelings do.

I feel crumbled inside.
Can't put myself up straight...
Some feelings, I'm forced to hide
From those who don't get me right.

I'm always put aside.
I'm always left alone.
There's no one to take my hand,
To smile, and give me love,
No one to take me to the sand,
And watch while the sun light goes.

I didn't say what I felt...
While I was still running on time.
Now it's just to late to dream
Of beautiful arms open wide,
Waiting for me to fall
In the heaven by her side.

I think I know what's right,
But it's not my choice to make.
I can only talk, late like hell...
Reveal everything that's fake.

I'm not the one to drive
The decision on givin a chance.
Although it will be the forth
To surely fail, with pain for her,
Although advised in advance.

I just want her happy...
See her eyes glow like the sun!
While she smiles at me for knowing,
That I'll always be with her
Whatever happens, that is sure.

I see her riding...
Into a cloud of flames.
I know she'll run out burnt,
So I'll be waiting, with in my arms
To catch her while her tears
Flow down her face of sorrow,
Putting out the fire that burned
Her heart with all that hurt.

I just want her to smile...
But sometimes I take the wrong way.
I just want to help her...
Conquer whatever she'll desire.

I do things droven by some feelings,
And then I'm guided by others.
They fight inside me a war,
That I just can't take over.

I'm sorry for the wrong words...
For the wrong thoughts and behaviors...
I never meant to hurt you.
I just want to stay by your side,
Go wherever you go,
Keep you in my mind,
And love like you'll never know...